Letting go.

Hi, it's been a long time.

I've been wanting to blog but laziness have been pulling me back.

Hi again, I've broken up.

(Wild and free now babies!)

Been almost three weeks but I just can't forget everything that've happened.

They say time heal everything, I doubt it because the longer it is, the more pain my heart actually feels.

Maybe it's wrong of me to even think and remember such things.

But you think I can help it?

I have a heart.

I loved so hard. It was probably my first true love, swear man!

But, oh well.

True that they say nothing lasts forever.

I must learn to let go.

I must always believe that someone better will cross my path.

YOU CAN JUST KILL ME.

This kind of pain is probably too much for me to handle.

I don't know what the fuck is in your skull.

As much as I want to know, the more I am not knowing.

Seriously.

Maybe a separation would do both of us good, well, I don't know.

All I can say is, I can't bear to separate after so much, yeah.

But, seriously, I can't take it any longer. Omg.

I've been seeing things that I don't want to see at all. Fuck this man.

This is not doing any one of us good, yknow.

I know you know.

Ey fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been seeing little details every where I go.

Maybe, that's hint. Hinting me to do something.

And you know what, the more I see, the more things are able to be pieced together.

Slowly, they form a picture of a heartbroken girl. Yeah that's me.

I don't know. I really have no idea.

Maybe you don't know about the things that I've done.

Best part: you know how MUCH I fucking hate liars.

Yeah especially blatant liars like you, you bitch.

Maybe you din't know that you've already let the pussy out of the fucking bag.

But hell yeah, you did.

AND HELL YEAH I noticed that lie bitch.

I don't know.

But I don't think I can do this any longer.

Maybe there's no connections.

My gut feelings tell me there is.

So, should I fuck my gut feelings or fuck you?

Yeah prolly should just fuck you so fucking hard that you'd probably forget how to lie again, you mofo.

I don't know why the hell am I so mad, but I really am this mad.

So mad, I wanna cry.

My heart hurts, literally.

I don't know what else I can do, other than whining on this space like a dumb fool.

Yeah you've just reached my limits.

Oh yea, in case you din't know, fools have their limit, too.

And you, have, officially, entered the top of my hate list.

Omg can't get so mad and upset at the same time, I'm getting like stitches in my stomach fuck.

UGH I DON'T KNOW IF IM MAD AT YOU OR AM I JUST ANGRY WITH MYSELF FOR BEING SO FUCKING STUPID TO TRUST YOU IMPLICITLY, OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

IT'S LIKE LETTING YOU SCREW ME OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

Frankly, ranting like a bitch is so last century.

There's no other better ways.

First day, last day? I don't give any flying fucks.

Yeah you can call me stupid, you can say I'm dumb. Well, I agree.

You know how I always melt. Ok maybe that's your trick.

BUT WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR AGENDA IN DOING ALL THESE, MAY I ASK?

Maybe she can be your better angel.

Maybe someone better will cross my path.

I wish I was less sensitive.

Maybe it was my sensitivity led us to this path of no return.

I have no idea. I just want to be dead to the entire world.

Ah fuck.

You have life.

I have no life.

Bye-bye gonna find my new life.

xx.

INSPIRATION.

Hi all, I need inspiration! Like quite badly.

And omg, I'm so tempted to do something ha ha ha ha!
Okay, make that a lot of things. ;)

Okay, I'm kinda out of words already. I know I barely started k.
Work later, with fun people yay!

Made quite a few friends, so far......... only one bitch.

FUCK YOU BITCH.
But so far, yeah great people around.
People like Angeline, Sarah..... yeah.

Yknow Angeline has like only fuck5ing points for her O levels, after deduction, LIKE. WHAT. THE. HELL.

Max cool I tell you.

And so many pretty people around me, I feel so inferiorrrrrrrr ugh.

HE HE INFERIORITY-O-METER DROPPED.

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA H AHA H!

Now, happy galz. ;)

I really kinda want to watch Repunzel.
AND I MISSED THE BARBIE SHOW YESTERDAY NIGHT DAMN!!!!

So lazy to leave the house swear...........

Feel like painting my nails ha ha ha ha.

NICE NAILS I LIKE.

xx.

HIHI!

Hi hi, I'm a fairy living in the magical forest he he!

OH YES! I love my dream last night he he he he he he he he he. ^^

xx.

FEI VA RATE.

OMG OMG OMG.

I want something like thisssssss!

If I get it, omg, I think I'll be the happiest gurl......

xx.

You keep me awake at the nights and dreaming during the day.

I wanted to blog so badly just now.
Now that I am here, I lost every thought that I wanted to blog about, ugh.

But well, this is me.

Shouldn't people just accept others for who they are rather than who they are not, no?

Personally, I don't think people should change their personality for others.

But I've been trying so damn hard to change yknow, yeah, for you.

Either my change is futile or you are oblivious to my changes.

Okay maybe I hadn't change much but heck!

But hey! Life is about doing the things that make you happy, not doing things that pleases others. But, pleasing you is possibly the only thing that makes me happy.......

Beginning was great. Then it became bland. Now it's stale.
There's nothing we can do.
Or maybe things will get better after Monday?
Maybe, that is.

Honestly, I am quite skeptical about sweet guys.
I've personally seen a handful of guys, and bullshit, being sweet is an act.
Yeah yeah she's all nice and wonderful.
I'm nowhere near that standard.
Yeah I got that on my mind constantly. Please stop reminding me of it.
Why can others be so nice and sweet and all???????????????????
Maybe we were too rash and hotheaded to get ourselves into this.

Yknow what, I keep reminding myself that all of these is worth the wait.
Turns out that I'm wrong.
Frankly, I don't know what the heck is in your mind.
My thoughts are so clear as crystal to you, all of us know that.
Your thoughts always seem so secluded in your own thick skull.
It's almost mission impossible to penetrate and infiltrate your thoughts, let alone see through it.
Please, just let your thoughts be known to me for once.
Oh, you don't know about this.
Whenever I can't sleep at night, I imagine you to be my bolster and I hug you to bed. Tadah, I will be sleeping soundly in no time. S W E A R.
Cliche as it may seem, it's true.
And baby, there's still a lot more that I do. Silly things.
But no, this is no space private enough to speak of things meant for you only.
Hm, I know I am always wishing for weird things ha ha ha.

You probably had lots of fun these few days.
Alright I should be getting excited for Monday all over again. And the day after, too.
SIGH SIGH SIGH.

Anyhow, prom kinda sucks except for the partying part.
Or it's all because i'm too shy a girl.



xx.

EXCITED FOR SURPRISES.

HIHI.

Tomorrow will be a busy day. My wrist is breaking i am so dead.

I can't wait for what's gna happen 8 days later, whoo!!

TATA!! ^^

HI ALL IM BACK.

Hi im working at Udders Siglap.

Quite honoured that you are stalking me and interested in my affairs.

No need to find out from others girl, ask me straight.

Whatever, hope to see you soon at Udders huh since you live so near. :)

Okie shan't spend too much time on ya.

Back to topic.

I gotta keep believing.

Faith is what keeps everyone going, I suppose?

Besides, amazing things happen when you believe and dream big.

Ugh I dont know what to do with you seriously.

Are you like out to kill me? ):

Stop blowing hot and cold, yknow I hate it.

My wrist hurtssssssss. My toes too. ):

I feel like having strawberry smiles!!! ^^

On a side note, I had the entire pint of ice cream earlier on.

Oh my god, I swear Im so sick of vanilla now. Wtf i can die literally.

PS: I can feel i've gained like ten pounds.

PS2: I feel like having subway yumyum.

Is getting drunk and drinking the new trend?

Why is everyone, underage, drinking and getting themselves drunk?

WHAT. THE. HELL.

There's really a limit the liver can go up to okay.

Seriously, I saw this health documentary.

There was this teenage girl who drank too much and she like, almost died. I SWEAR MAN.

It was FUCKING SCARY.

Should I change my email?

Gonna play maple now he he, ta ta!

xx.

Back to action.

Hi all! I miss blogging so much!

But i bet no one ever read this space anymore lol.

Prom is tomorrow. And guess what. My first day of work is tomorrow, toozzzzz.

Kinda excited!! ^^

nb blogger is always screwed zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

i hope i dont do anything wrong tomorrow and i hope i wont need to walk so much tomorrow.

my feet will hurt and i will die omg.

this post is screwed fuck.

till next time.

DAMN FUCKING TRUE!!

THINGS A GIRL WANTS BUT DON'T ASK FOR.

1. Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts

5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her everywhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she’s beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she’s your everything - ONLY if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.

25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. DON’T lie to her

27. DON’T cheat on her!

28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.

30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT’S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold YOU too

32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.

35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.

38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.

39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.

40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS

42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

43. Take her for LONG walks at night.

44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.

45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

46. Rub her back—feels good

47. Give her your coat if she’s cold—thats always cute

48. Write letters on her back with your finger—feels good ;D

49. Let her sit on your lap

50. DON’T poke her hard…but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.

51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.

52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she’s BEAUTIFUL

53. Keep conversations flowing…talk about anything usually they just go along with it.

54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionately and gently.

55. Surprisingly sneak up on her and hug her from behind—loves it.

56. Kiss her in the rain.

57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.

58. Slow dance with no music

59. Don’t ignore her or be nervous around her—everything is going to be okay.

60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you’ll be good to go.

I don't know what's up with you/me zzzzzzz.

COMMUNICATION BREAKDOWN!!!!!!

H8 this, swearrrrrr ugh!

I don't understand why are you doing this.

I don't comprehend why I am taking the effort to always text you first recently ugh!

I'm putting in effort into this rs, are you.

I don't wanna do this anymore.

It's becoming like a burden I shouldn't be shouldering and yet, it feels like I need to do this to salvage matters.....

Oh yes, fuck school totally.

NO COMPASSION NO NOTHING>

There was this heavy downpour this morning and the school made no actions to sympatise with students going to school via public transport zzzzz.

I dont know why they say school is like a second home.

I say, flush that down the bowl manxx.

Anw, havent the school got any slightest idea how jammed the traffic is, outside school, during peak hoursssss?

School school school sux sux sux totally totally totally.

Im this angry bcux i took a cab and i paid S$11.60 for a 25 minutes ride when i usually only take 15 minutes to reach school and 10 minutes to be home from school.

NOW HOWS THAT BROWN COW.

And....... im not very happy with the way sin minjie is treating someone.

Ballless guy.

Good news bring smiles;

bad news travel miles.

Too slow, way too slow.

This is for you, bby (ex).

I've been hurt.

So hurt.

I feel like my life licks dick.

Prolly the time is ripe, for me to let you and the memories go.

No matter how much I can't bear to, I have to do it.

I can't stand the throbbing heartaches anymore.

Can't stand how both of you look at each other.

Can't stand how affectionately she converse with you.

Can't stand the way I'm feeling now.

Maybe you're the one I want but not the one I need.

Words can't possibly describe what I feeling now but I need a break from you.

Probably a clean break.

But I can't do it.

I can't forget you and your number and that sucks.

Escapees.

I think people who skip whatever tests are losers, I swear.

So what if you din't study?

You think everyone studied?

Kiss my arse.

Like what Mr loh said, this is merely escaping from reality.

Face the music doods.

Os are just round the corner.

Even if this is only a mock exam, it's akin to practice.

It's just about scores not being acceptable.

So if you are so anxious about your grades, I don't see you studying hard enough to make it.

And here you are, displaying such perfectionist in yourself, unable to accept failures?

To err is human fyi.

I don't know but this is my point of view.

I'm eccentric, fucked up and irritating and if I were to be labelled as a bloody bitch, i'm okay.

"Do not disturb the PURE SCIENCE students."

Yeah, PURE SCIENCE students are smart and everything.
Combined sciences students don't matter and weigh nothing as compared to pure science students.
Because pure science students are always in the first class and they have manners and behave properly.
They always score and do well in everything single fucking thing they do.
They are the best.
They always bring glory to the school.
Technically, combined science students shouldn't even be compared to pure sciences students because combined sciences students are crude and stupid. (I wouldn't even use the word dumb.)
And combined sciences students DON'T have that kind of honor and luck to be compared with the superior pure sciences students.
Don't worry teacher, we, the combined sciences students will keep real quiet and won't disturb the pure sciences students.
We all hope they will score in the upcoming O levels and bring more glory to the school.

Love,
combined science student.

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Hi world!

One down, so much more to go.

But also, on the brighter side, it's ONE down.

(Yeah, sooooo much brighterrrr.)

UGH WHTEVR.

I think I lost the touch.

And in addition to that, I think I hate guys.

I think I hate Avatar, gives me the creeeeeeps.

I think cats hate meeeeeeee. )))))))::::::::

I THINK TODAY'S A PRETTY BAD DAY FOR ME ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

All in all, life for me sux.

Hi all.

It's been a long time since I last did a proper post.

Define proper.

Define friends.

Define trust.

There's no longer any other person whom I can have complete trust in and that sucks, I swear.

Life has been a total pile of dung.

It has been Chinese, Chinese and more Chinese every single fucking day.

UGH!!!!!!!!!

What's more is that, people around you have been improving constantly and you are the only one who has stagnant results.

Now, fuck that hard.

On another gloomier note, more than a week has past and we're still behaving as usual.

Should we even continue like this or what?!!!?

Personally, I think it's okay to behave this again but it has been leading to false accusations around.

And let me reiterate once more, I did not break up because I wanted to have the best of both world nor did I break up because I want to have more choices.

So, shut your gaps if you have no sense over what you're uttering about.

Hm, that's about it.

Ditto!

SPECIALLY FOR BELOVED MOOMOOS.

UGH!!!!!! I CAN DIE FROM ALL THESE CRAPPPPPP.

All the betraying shit.

SUCK MY DICK DOODS.

Knn how old already.

And fyi, im not sad, not in the least sad.

Im just feeling mad, so mad I could killllllllllllllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!

(Gory fantasy.)

Oh okay, hold on. Prolly I feel kinda sad for all these juvenile minds. Sigh.

GROW UP MANNNNNX.

P.s/ Im kinda disgusted tooooo.

What's the fucking point.

Just use your fucking brains.

Don't ya feel any tinge of shamelessness? Tsk.

That's all for ya, see how much space I dedicate to you moomoos when you guys don't even deserve it.

I FUCKING HOPE YOU'LL SEE THIS AND DISSOLVE IN THE GOSSIPS AND LIES YOU GUYS ARE FABRICATING.

Four X Sixteen

It's been so long since I've last updated this space.

Had a hell of a good (dirty) time yesterday.

I swear it's the dirtiest I've ever gotten, imagine that.

Received prezzzies and birthday greetings already.

Thx to:

DARLENE SERENA DERMAWAN,

JANE KARINA SOEBROTO,

CRYSTAL AUDREY,

HO XIN YI STEPHANIE,

TEO HWEE CHING MELISSA,

LIM XIN NI HAZEL,

GAN LI PING,

LIM YIN XIA STEFFI,

NG HUI WEI DEBORAH,

CHIN JIAN WEN GEORGE,

CHENG ZAI DAH BRANDON,

CHEN XIN,

CHUA HAO PENG ALOYSIUS,

FANG NAI YING MARC,

TEO YU HAN SIDNEY and

ON YI CHIAK CLEMENT.

(Hmm, can't wait for Tuesday! :D)

The food fight was like WHOA.

Yes fun and amazing at how fast people can run at that moment.

In a blink, all the girls disappeared, HA HA HA.

That, was, funny.

We smacked chocolate cake, threw raw chicken, hung Indo longevity noodles on hair, had flying corns across our faces, mayo on our shirt and sprite on MY hair.

HA, define fun and happiness. :D

Luv you guyszzzz!

And I had a birthday card meant for a grandson.

It would be alright if it was meant for a granddaughter instead, but grandson!!!!!?

NO WAY.

Ha, but it's okay.

I'm very nice, you all know that. ;)

And, Brandon smacked my back damn hard because I stole a silent attack behind him and threw a raw chicken at him. HA HA HA HA HA.

But hor, that Brandon always no mercy one lorrrrr.

Boys, girls, ahgong, ahma, JUST WHACK.

Then the girls, except Xin ni, Hui wen and Yin xia, stayed over at Darlene's place.

It was quite fun. ;)

We took alot of pictures but dang it, we din't take a group shot.

UGH.

Oh yes oh yes.

I washed my hair four times on that night and another two times the next afternoon but the stench just kinda refuse to leave my haiiiiiiiir. ):

I don't want to smell like mayo-cream mixture when school reopens.

Kay, I need to go.

G'bye people and luv you guyzzzz 4evaaaa!

leong

MIZS MY HUN.

"Hi baby.
I know you won't be reading this.
But, I want you to know -
I'm missing you so much I'm going mad.
Whr exactly r u nw hun!!!
I miss ur smell.
I miss those mini bickers that we used to have.
I miss studying with you.
I miss texting you.
I miss walking home with you.
I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you."

☮ leong

Fuck shit.

I feel so fucked up.
What the hell was wrong with me?!
What the hell was wrong with you?!

What the fucking hell went wrong between us?!!

I don't want to go to school tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want schl.
I don't want schl.
I don't want schl.
I wannnnnna be sick tomorrrrrow, fuck.

☮ leong

First day of schl.

Hi.

The start of the day is so much different from the end of the day.
Various reasons which I should just shut my gap about.
I seriously wonder what would become of me, at the end of the day.
I MEAN, REALLY WONDER.

Looking at the way I'm behaving, something is definitely coming my way, gonna knock on my door and fucking get me down.
But I can't resist doing it.
Let's just hope that it won't worsen and make goddamn sure that no one catches wind on this.

Twenty ten, HA HA HA.
What a fucking good year ey.
I have so much to say yet nothing would come out.
I have so much to do yet nothing would get started on.
I have so limited patience yet you just had to do this.

School sucks to the ultimate bleedin' core.
I h8 schl.
I h8 you.
I h8 me.

☮ leong

Twentyten.

Happy twenty ten!
May things go well and smoothly.
I'll forget twenty-o-nine and start anew in twenty ten.

(hopefully)

☮ leong