Phase.

"I have no control. There is nothing I can do to stop myself. When I think
about food, I become unstoppable. All I want is to be tiny. I have the right
plan, but I can never follow through. I hate myself more every time I
fail."

Hi guys, it's been soooo long.

Im kinda under this phase that i have, like, annually. Yeah kinda like an annual thingy. Except that im more determined this time round.
I feel like i've offended so mmmmaaaaannnnnyyyy people. But my sole intention was all in the name of good fun.... FUCK i swear.... :(
So now, im like down, like really down.
I don't wna hang out with anyone anymore, i just wna spend this time to reflect and yeah reflect. It seems like it's my fault. ALWAYS. Thank god its the holidays now. I fucking hate this kind of shit yknow. At the same time as im typing all these out, my tears are always on the verge on trickling down my scarred cheeks SIGH WHAT HAVE I BECOME.
Maybe, just maybe, i should shut my fucking gap.

I really hope deactivating my facebook account and changing my twitter password to some random shit will help. IT HAS TO HELP, we have no other choices.
I dont know how i should actually feel right now.
SIGH SIGH SIGH JUST WANNA GET THE FUCK AWAY.

Till then guys.